so anyways. I've worked out a diet for myself and I'm losing weight already :3 I realized I don't need to eat as much as my stomach seems to think I do. So I'm back in that state of mind I was when I was sixteen only instead of starving myself I'm just moderating. I'm still going to eat just not as much and I'm going to be drinking water and milk only as well as exercising more.

In other news I'm hosting my first kandi party where all us ravers sit down and make kandi to trade at the next rave :3 I'm going to see Red again sometime this week hopefully and this time I'm going to flying glomp Jellybean for the lulz. Jellybean's a sweet guy and needs to know we all love him no matter how much we rip on him. I'm still walking around with my teddy bear Beary because I fucking love my rainbow sprinkle teddy bear. I don't care if I'm twenty-one. I'm not leaving Beary home EVER. He's on a necklace so I don't lose him too :3 so fuck what people think of me for carrying a teddy bear everywhere. I'm not going to stop lol. I don't care if I'm weird but I've never felt more at home with anyone than the ravers.
Becoming a raver for me..it was like I was an orphan all my life looking for my family, my home..I found all that in the form of a high bass beat in a crush of bodies that moved nonstop like an ocean of love and peace. It was like a little child who lost their parents and finally found their family again. I found where I belong. I belong with those who accept me and love me for who I am no matter what. Those who respect me even if I am different. I found my home..